昨天　今天　昨是今非

Today's really not my day.

昨天回家很積極的做了很多事情

很努力要早睡卻還是一點才上床

好在是有很快入眠而且睡得頗好

however

我明明記得我有設鬧鐘  7:!0

為何我一點知覺也沒有就這樣睡到了八點二十接電話才起床

是否睡得太好了一點

可是maybe我需要一點時間休息  不是逃避問題也不是因為討厭就想要懈怠

如果我家今天是出門很快就會到學校 我當然馬上起床出門

我今天接到電話當然是非常慌張的跳起來然後就站在衣櫃前

想想我弄一弄出門最快也要快十點才到學校

如果平常日我想我還是會起床趕快出門

可是 hearing that 今天有長官要來

那如果大家都坐好好的在那邊上課我一個人走進去不是很突兀嗎

也許 有到總比沒到好

遲到總比不來好

我只是想說我並不是個不負責任或任性的人

雖然我有時的確任性但我自認還是個reasonable的人

i'm just not feeling right

if i really don't care about this thing, 

i would definitely not be angry about myself of missing the alarm clock and getting up late 

what i should do or what i should not do

there's a rule in my mind

and i think it is quite appropriate

i admit that everyone has some shortcomings

maybe it is one of mine

but please do not treat me as if i'm a person who with no common sense

or even the person who with low standard of ethic

in the video which had been shown in this evening

there was a sentence going like this

"everyone has his own mentality, however, the key point is whether you're going to display or not"

last night i thought i had already adjust mine to the right way to encounter with it

so who else consider me as one who does not devote him/herself to this activity

is absolutely not acceptable for me

everyone has the occasional moment to act out of normal condition

you can not identify a person with just a little and rarely happened situation.

people should be considerate to others.

and lenient.

I always regard myself as a well self-disciplined person

in that i can't or i barely can  accept the criticism against my character or dignity

what happened today is just an neligence,

i did 100% not intend to do so.

ad i've already made my own apology and penitence for my previous deviant behavior.

please stop arguing or "discussing" about this.

ok?